A digest for conscious living
Although I have felt too ill to do any yoga since Sunday, I meditated last night as well as this morning. I was not expecting to be able to meditate very effectively because of my stuffy nose, but I washed my nose out with saline solution so as to be able to breath better and was surprised at the results.
Last night’s meditation was penetrating. I had some very intense releases of energy which I think had something to do with the flushing of some of the negative energy attached with my cold. After the last rush, my eyes opened involuntarily and the unusual mix of being in that mental state with open eyes opened me up to a very intense experience. For just a short time, I realized completely who and what I am- I had a Kensho experience. I became completely Lucid in this Dream. I have had these experiences a few times in my life before, but every time it is mind blowing and transformative. It seems as if the trigger for these experiences seems to be the juxtaposing of a non-ordinary state of mind with a very ordinary sensory experience. In the case of last night’s experience, I opened my eyes at the height of my meditation, and the first thing that I saw was an object that could not be more mundane- the heating element below the window in our living room. I have seen this exact heater and others like it many thousands of times in my life, and yet it felt as if it was the first. For an instant, the strangeness of this feeling confused me and made me focus my attention inward as if to ask who is… and at that moment it dawned on me with almost chilling clarity that it was not “me” seeing, but “Me” the Dreamer. All my worldly concerns became so trivial in that moment, and I was aware of the awesome creative power that I possess.
It is such a strange experience that when I try now to describe it or even remember it clearly, it defies me. Its like trying to describe the experience of a very complex and vivid sleeping dream- one can never really do it justice. The one thing that I can say however is that for that short period before I drifted back to a more ordinary state of mind, it was clear that I am on the right path. Everything is as it should be…
Goodnight,
Kikta