A digest for conscious living
I friend of mine from the States whom I had not seen in a long time was in town this weekend and some friends of mine and I went out with him on Friday and Saturday nights. All the while I have been fighting the cold that seems to be going around the city at the moment. The upshot of this is that I did not complete my practice on Saturday and I only did the yoga section of it on Sunday.
Although I already sense a diminished degree of aware presence because of my missed meditations (granted I am dealing with a cold), I also recognize that it has not necessarily been a negative thing. It had been almost a month since I went a day without meditating and I feel like the break has provided me with some good perspective.
Its as if every time I meditate, a certain shift occurs within my subconscious. Although I am certain that the long term effect of this work is positive, there is a short term aspect which can be somewhat arduous.
The process I am addressing happens entirely at the subconscious level, so it is hard to describe, but I will try to use a metaphor based on visions that I have had during meditation:
Its as if my mind is a deep well reaching down to the immense cavernous underwater reservoir that is my subconscious. At the very bottom, shrouded in inky darkness, the cavern bottoms at the ground of my being. The floor is covered with silt, and sometimes my movements there disturb it. A strong movement can cause the silt to rise and bloom into clouds that obscure the otherwise clear water. This is perceived by my conscious mind as a feeling of emotional perturbation. Over the long run I know that my work there is gradually cleaning and bringing harmony to this place- this is visibly verifiable when, during the moments of energy realease, the entire cavern gets lit up and I am able to see the wondrous, stunning, grandure of the place I have come to rest. Sometimes however after a long period of vigorous meditation, I feel it is good to take a break and allow the dust to settle before proceeding with my work. By virtue of my temporary absence, the clarity returns to these deep waters- I am able to feel the clarity reflected in my emotional state.
I look forward to going back to the well tonight.
Goodnight,
Kikta