A digest for conscious living
The Practice continues… since the first day of my fast last week, and even after having begun to eat again, I have noticed that I have been generating significantly less chi energy in my body during meditation. I do not necessarily believe that this is a measure of the quality of the meditations tha I have been having, but it is interesting to note.
It has now been almost four months since I began maintaining this journal online. During this period I have been meditating virtually every day and practicing yoga and other forms of exerise almost as regularly.
The first part of my journey was quite dramatic. I experienced a great deal of bliss and insight as well as struggle and confusion in that first period. I believe I have entered a new phase of my journey and it is characterized by a different kind of awareness.
I feel quite a bit more stable now with far less inclination to intellectualize many of the subtleties of the spiritual impressions which I have on a regular basis. Part of the reason for this is that (as mentioned in previous entries) it has become so abundantly clear that almost everything I think and most of what I feel is redundant and repetitive. Particularly my thoughts have so very little validity to me recently. At this point, its hard to take myself seriously.
Interestingly however, my conviction about what I am doing is as strong as ever. My daily Practice is as important to me as it has ever been, it is just that rationalizing any of what is happening to me is not. Thinking about Spirituality has become less appealing and less rewarding.
Instead, I am finding it much more satisfying to undertake tasks in my daily life and try to maintain complete commitment to where I am and what I am doing- this is no mean feat. It can be just as satisfying to wash the dishes properly as it is to sit and meditate, or philosphize about Sprituality.
I feel my focus being drawn out of the world of introspection and back to the world all around me. Its an interesting twist and there is resonance in this.
Goodnight,
Kikta